& looking forward to nicer tomorrows

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-10-18T22:09:00

2009-10-18T14:11:11Z

OHH YAYYS MY GRACES SHIRT SMELLS REALLY NICE WHAHHAHAS AWNNS I MISS NY! ;D

BORED BORED BORED

2009-10-17T03:17:46Z

OMG I'M BORED BORED BORED SO BORED MY SISTER AND I ARE LIKE STUCK AT HOME WITH NO WHERE TO GO SAD SAD SAD AND TODAY'S A PUBLIC HOLIDAY BLAHHHHS

UGLY

2009-10-15T15:23:58Z

Was just randomly flipping through the channels and eventually just decided to stop at Channel 5 Project Runway Season 6 was showing and since i've got nothing else to watch i just randomly hmms watched it and it was omg an eye opener

First time watching it Never watched it before and it's like wow I've never seen this kind of things before Kay the dresses from the newspapers were pretty cool and nice But omg the thing is it's so haix

i see how people turn super ugly in competitions all the backstabbing all the sarcasm all the criticism all the bad things things i don't usually see it played on teevee and it just makes me feel super put off super disgusted super scared about my future

is the real society going to be like that

i realise maybe people have gotten used to these kind of things but i don't know it just feels scary and mean i realise i tend to compare these kinds of american shows to the taiwanese or even local shows and it's so different maybe the teevee just didn't show the super bad and mean parts but still i've never remembered anything like that before competitors seem so friendly so nice to one another nothing like what i've seen on project runway before

haix is that what they call life the society the ugly side of man

but whatever it is i feel super disgusted by it

on a random note flags of our fathers is showing this sat at 10 i was just sort of talking about letters from iwo jima wow miss ny again

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-10-13T20:02:00

2009-10-13T12:23:56Z

horrible horrible horrible waiting for results just gives me this horrible feeling scaryyy

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-10-12T21:48:00

2009-10-12T13:56:51Z

yepps yepps yepps today's the last day of promos alr gahs we got the last paper on this last day awnns hao bah you shi you zhong worh :/ and then and then ah haixxx i was just telling andrel that i haven't got into this mugging mood yet and then woosh promos come and then blahhs it's over haix and so once again i'm super unprepared for promos le screwed screwed screwed please please please please please please pray hard man

haixxx need to learn to be consistent all yr round man whhahas like andrel like that lalalas

yayys yayys yayys ion ion ion whahahs learnt quite some stuffs from andrel yayys she introduced a lot of new stuffs to me man yayys nxt time shall go and eat more and i think kikki k is rather nice i think sort of nicer than artbox lorhh wahhas but it's rather ex larhh so whahhas yays thanks andrel and thanks amanda for coming to meat us but still felt bad when she didn't buy stuffs to eat in the end hohos yays man shall go patronize kikki k more nxt time

randomly speaking i keep biting my nails during exams larh very bad now my fingers hurt haixx oh yarh and today's liu lao de xin ku ni le makes me feel very awnnnnns sweet (:

BIRTHDAY! :D

2009-10-12T13:47:30Z

whahahas i'm like always in this state of having to backdate entries haix even in livejournal hurh

yays birthday this year didn't feel very birthday-ish whahhas must be cos of the extreme stress and pressure we are all in hohos but still this year birthday made me feel very thankful once again yays yays yays :D too many people to thank so thank you thank you everyone :)

and as always birthdays always made me feel very guilty to a lot of people as well i'm so sorry to like a lot of people cos i always don't give you all birthday presents not even to those very very close friends boos

and it feels ironic hurhs cos actually i really like giving ppl stuffs de lorhh whahhas but then ahh whahhas ohh kayy larhh i must learn to be a good and nice friend yayys yayys :D

i think nxt yr's birthday won't be on an exam day le bah whahas not that i mind it that much but still whahahs kayys i think i sort of hoped that it would give me birthday luck on my exam please please give me luck (:

MAF~

2009-09-19T16:12:33Z

whahahhas finally this yr we get to stay back for the songs and dances whahas i remember previously when we were in ny we left after watching the perfomance cos totally felt no link whahahs dots dots

yayys and lights this yr is nice whahahs big big tu po worh yays yayys and wahahs the performance was quite amusing whahahs lalalas i was so sad scared that i'd miss co de awnnns

and yayys mass dance whahhas i like twirling ppl oh kays twirling jaime whahas cos i think those spinning parts are the parts that i can do only whahhas feels accomplished yays jaime is funnehh whahahs and so mass dance became quite fun yayys whahas i like dancing with jaime yayys and i am a not bad guy worh cos i can twirl successfully lehhs whahahs lalalas

kayyys feeling rather high like very long nvr like that le whahhas and saw very few our class ppl worh tsk tsk

whahahs i don't know why but i was sort of hoping for something good to happen and i suppose several good things happen in the end whahahs lalalas kays not those good good like i've expected whahhas kayys very random ohh and come to think of it i realise hings won't happen if i think abt it too much which means unexpected things always happen yarh whahhas kays this para is so random

kayys another random para 有人说没表情的人不一定心里也是没感觉只是不把它们表露出来而已因为表露出来可能会影响别人的情绪我听了之后想起了那段到中国浸濡的日子还觉得蛮惭愧的尤其是中三那年我真得很不懂事吧真得很令人讨厌想想当时的自己真得很不应该真是很烂现在看现在的自己感觉自己根本都没有变是自己不想变吗我也不知道只是知道从中三开始就告诉自己要低调一直到了高中了怎么还是这么的低调也这么容易就把自己的情绪表现出来呢不管是喜怒哀还是乐自己就这么容易地这么赤裸裸地表露出来真是太不为人着想了也真是太自私了有时候其实觉得自己人做作我讨厌那样的自己韦什麽就不能低低调调的安安静静的呢

heh shall go for maf nxt yr bah wahahas (:

COURT SHOES!

2009-09-19T15:49:07Z

today i wore court shoes for the whole day yays felt happy and nice whahahs don't know leh somehow i felt nice wearing court shoes nice nice i like reminds me of nyco times yays nice nice as well whahhas court shoes yays and i'm proud of myself for being able to run in court shoes whahahs yays i'm weird hohos

ohhh today tried another kind of okonomiyaki at jp hehs it's the moonlight one with the egg on top hohos whahahas i don't know lehh i quite like okonomiyaki even though it's like rather pancakey whahahs but i still like i think not many ppl will like cos it tastes hmms bland i don't know but still it's nice yays lalalas

but i suppose walking/running in court shoes the whole day is quite bad for my feet blahs i don't know feels quite painful and such and all the blisters but still i don't know whahahs i still like yayys (:

真是不好的一天啊

2009-09-14T15:05:37Z

今天啊本来应该是开开心心读书的第一天

但是唉今天感觉一整天都很不顺利阿有很多东西要做但是却有很多东西没完成一点成就感都没有

但是感觉上有些事有一点的发展了哦终于可以前进了是吗

而且啊今天我做了很糗的事真的是而且今天好像也很多嘴了哦说了不应该说的话问了不应该问的问题好烂哦

我好讨厌这样的自己呀本来今天应该是低调的一天安安静静地低低调调地听别人讲话不应该吵吵闹闹地才对啊可是为什么我决定要做的事总是总是无法达到呢

我呀真的是很失败呢是一个很烂的人很讨人厌的人呀我的一生真的是很失败很失败

为什么我就是不能安安静静的呢为什么一定要这样呢明明知道这是不对的但是啊为什么为什么呢总是无法控制自己为什么就是无法掌控自己的情绪呢我真的不想一直这样的啊但是我就是唉

真是一个很糟糕的一天总而言之我又讨厌自己了

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-09-13T23:33:00

2009-09-13T15:35:23Z

明天就要开学了！

从明天开始就要认认真真地读书了！

要加油呀！（：

LONG JOHN SILVERS' :D

2009-09-09T14:24:18Z

today is the second time i ate long john silver's this week and there's this promotion going on so i felt it was quite worth the money even though the portion of fries seems little but still yepps

i quite like long john silver's i realise i remembered last time when i used to eat long john silver's when i was young the serving was bigger but it sort of shrunk i thought maybe it's just me cos i grew older and grew bigger so the food seems lesser to be but whahas i think the serving really did shrink haix

i realise i always eat the same things when i go long john silver's and it's not just long john's silver for that matter whahhas i suppose for food i'm quite a zhuan yi person yays and i like the yi jian zhong qing feel towards objects/food nice whahhas yet maybe i'm just a cowardly person or boring person who doesn't like to try new challenges but still i shall choose to believe i'm a super devoted person lalas

but anyways back to long john silver's it's super salty i remembered when i was young i could finish half a cup of coke as i ate long john so it shows how salty it is cos i usu don't drink water with my meals so whahhas i guess it's still like that now cos somehow i still have to drink coke as i eat so whahhas

long john silver's carries a super special meaning to me it's like part of my childhood esp the cck one that's why i like it so much (:

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-09-07T22:23:00

2009-09-07T14:40:49Z

粉红色的衣服粉红色的裙子粉红色的鞋子粉红色的发夹粉红色的书耶！粉红色！：D

i realise i pay a lot of attention to book covers pink book covers look nice and i feel fuzzy and nice looking at just the covers alone whahhas covers play such a big part oh man like there was then when i insisted on buying hardcover twilight and the deathly hallows wahhahs super insistent on these kind of weird and minor details but it makes me feel happy happyyy i use a lot of time deciding the nicer cover for the same book hohos :D

最近在读《恋空》粉红色的书不仅让我吸引我的注意力也让我心情好好而且而且它还有上下两本上本是粉红色下本是蓝色而且上下两本并排在一起还形成了一个心形好好喔！

虽然如此但是感觉上文字并没有我想象的那么华丽那么诗意而且而且故事情节真是的小小年纪的16岁学生一天到晚爱来爱去又做来做去的还真是有些恶心

所以啊

oh mans i feel like an lao ah mah but stilll eeyerrs it still sounds so disgusting haixxx

408'08 HOT PINK CLASS TEE

2009-09-06T13:22:01Z

408'08 HOT PINK CLASS TEE IS THE PROUDEST TEE I'VE EVER HAD! <3

from the colour HOT PINK to the rather personalized DDIAO style it's like wow near to perfect :D plus it's not too big and not too small i suppose this is the only class tee which feels so fitting :D and it holds super special meaning to me cos it's 408'08 with whom i have so many nice and special memories and also because it's the first time i'm in charge of making of class tee or rather in charge of something i've never had experience with making a class tee before and so i have to learn a lot from scratch but i'm thankful for all the help i had then 408'08 and fellow activities rep evelyn and esp ah tian who's the one who made the design possible i remembered those times when we were trying out the colour combinations finding the nicest way to do the stamp having so much trouble with the fonts etc but we still managed to solve all these in the end i think one of the tricky parts was finding the right shade of colour i remembered me and evelyn had quite some trouble with that cos i don't know why but it felt that so few suppliers had hot pink but in the end we still found it yays it's not as hot as we expected i think but i thought it's good enough yays and i was super super glad that it turned out so nice so wow so near to perfect even better than i expected that it ppl can't rlly tell that it's a class tee at all :D

i'm so so so glad that we have a hot pink tee in the end it was such a close fight i was so scared that it would turn out to be plain old white in the end but yes thank you 408'08 thank you so so much

就是因为这样我知道我很自私但我希望它只属于我们属于我们这一班属于我们的回忆至少对我而言是如此

i'm so looking forward to the hoodie :D

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-04-05T10:55:00

2009-04-05T02:56:45Z

WHAHAHAS I LAMES LAMES AND SO I FEEL A SUDDEN URGE TO GO CHANGE BACK TO BLOGSPOT WHAHAHS SO YEPPS I'LL BE BACK AFTER I'M SICK OF BLOGSPOT SO YEPPS WHAHAHS TILL THEN WHAHAHS

IF ANYONE IS INTERESTED WHAHAHAS www.novm00ds.blogspot.com

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-04-02T00:29:00

2009-04-01T16:30:21Z

i don't know why but whenever i sing the song in xie mu i'll just smile and sing super loudly (:

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-04-01T22:38:00

2009-04-01T14:44:15Z

one of the stuffs i realised when i get into jc is i can't really act whahhas and i totally agree with what zixin said whahahs true true i realised all those times when i thought i was acting i was just being myself and so i can only being myself hmmms

lalalas but still a yanyuan from huangcheng said i'm a drama queennn lehhhh i feel complimenteddddd lalalas hohos but still why was i rejected still whahhas i don't rlly have hard feelings or stuffs now cos i finally faced up to the fact that i can't act so wahahhas but still i feel lalalas lehhhh

hohohos ohhh and another thing i realised is i've got stage fright that's like so saddeningggg awnns

GALA DINNER & HWACHONG SPIRIT! <3

2009-03-22T14:14:02Z

GALA DINNER! :D:D;D

whahahs it was fun lalalas and it sort of felt like some kind of wedding dinner hohos so yayys makes me look forward to everyone's wedding dinner lalalas yayys must invite me ppl cos i want to kajiao you all lalalas yayys whahahs i love yamseng-ing at our class whahahs so fun lalalas hmms food was not very nice but whahhas ohh kayys it's ohh kayy lalalas i like to walk walk around and talk to ppl i know and sayy hi hi and highhhhhh lalalas :D

whahahs i hope there are more of these kind of stuffs in future whahahs hopefully it'll be free or sth so whahahs yayys yayyys I LIKE TO FEEL THE HWACHONG SPIRIT! <3

LALALAS WEDDINGS WEDDINGS SO FUNNEHHHHHH

lalalas tzehan shall invite me to his wedding sometime nxt yr i suppose whahhas so yayys

blahhhs gp gp gp i conveniently forgot all abt it larhh sheeshhhhh

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-03-21T00:43:00

2009-03-20T16:49:27Z

i like to do notes on facebook yayyys whahhas i feel like adding a lot of friends so i can tag them to do the notes yayyys

i feel like a loser larhh now all i do is whine and whine and whine abt how sad i am now and all which i know is wrong but i just can't help it if this were 408'08 maybe i won't whine so much cos i don't rlly have much to whine abt this is like getting so saddening again blahhs i'm making a nuisance of myself blahhs blahhs but ohh wells at least i'm whining to myself and not to anyone in particular so yayys yayys lalalas i should try to make myself high high high or sth i don't know not like this when all i do is complain complain complain

ppl are like giving me the shocked look when i tell them i'm running for council ewe senior was totally like are you kidding or what whahhas i think somehow i myself is rather surprised at myself too whahhas i laugh i don't know what to say whahahs

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-03-20T23:37:00

2009-03-20T16:08:55Z

the village is showing on teevee now and it reminds me of ny and la blahhs i realised till now i still don't rlly understand the themes of the village and i forgot why we were shown it blahhs whahahs and i managed to convince my sister to watch this educational movie whahahs and she said she might have nightmares later blahhs and i realised the village received mostly negative comments abt it saddd i sort of liked the movie even though i didn't rlly understand it that much blahhs

hmms and i sort of agree with ah tian why bother going down if it just makes me feel sad and out and lonely yepps true true i seem to have lost all my urge and mood to socialise and all which can be considered rather good since my socialising is always offending ppl i might as well just shut up i seriously shd learn to just sit away and not fantasizing that i can socialise anywhere i can cos i can't i see a lot of chances and platforms for me to high high and socialise yet i always do it the wrong way and everything goes wrong that i don't feel like doing this anymore super disheartened i should really talk when i need to and not talk when i want to

everything's changed so this is the time when i have to learn learn learn how to be ddiao ddiao ddiao

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-03-19T21:14:00

2009-03-19T13:49:11Z

i finally realise everything is not going to be the same anymore life goes on and we'll have to move on i hate to admit that it's super impossible to go back to the good old 408'08 days it's hard to fit in again somehow saddening but yet true i can't seem to fit in anywhere now i can't talk to ppl and i can't relate to them le blahhhs

it feels like i'm gossiping all the time but in actual fact i realise this is how i've always been socialising i feel like super gossipy when i usu don't treat these kind of stuffs as gossip but apparently now it sounds and feels like gossip so i'm gossipy blahhs i'm like super incoherent now disgusting it's not gng to be the same as last time surprisingly i miss ny

and i finally see how miserable walking alone is and now i'll appreciate ppl telling me that i'll nvr walk alone anymore but sadly no one ever says this to me sad

emo emo emo sian sian sian i used to look forward to jc but ironically jc life is super scary and lousy i'm like offending ppl everywhere ddiao ddiao blahhs i hate to say this but i super miss ny

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-03-14T10:56:00

2009-03-14T03:37:25Z

whahahs i never knew there were still people who reads my blog wahhas but maybe it's only eyu only lorhh so whahahs yayyys thank you thank you since we don't have much time to like talk cos you are like so busy with your huang cheng thing i shall dedicate this post to talking to eyu yayyys yayyys :D

wahhahs ohh i just realised i never like officially congratulate you for being emcee! YAYYS CONGRATULATIONS! :D hehhs i hope you enjoy this lalalas and have fun with yufan hohos :D lalalas blahhs but i haven't found the sense of belonging thign and the bonding thing in huangcheng lehhh which i think partly iot's my fault cos i sort of keep ponning or sth but still it didn't feel as nice as it looks like lorhhh so hmms blahhhs but i'll still go down and play with daoju lalalas I MISS THE MANNEQUIN! with the nice and big boobs and the round and curvy body shape so yayys i didn't make the most of it it was zhiyi and eening who was doing it but i was having a lot of fun commenting abt how the boobs shd be made bigger or sth lalalas nay nay! :D

blahhhs and jc was not off to a good start lorhh cos no one in jc will like zong4 rong2 my loud and irritating and lousy attitude and character anymore so saddeningg larhh blahhs and that's when i start to miss ny eeyikkes and to think i was counting down to the days i come to jc so ironic! WHINESSSSS liyue says my mood swings very fast eeyikkkes saddeninggg yarh lorhh i was feeliong so emo that i decided i shd rlly start to be more ddiao and i shd stop using caps lorhhh so saddeningg larhh see seee seeee I MISS 408! WHINEEEES i miss the times when i can just sui bian walk up to anyone of you and i can just crap and socialise and be high and you all will understand and play along and then we all will be highhh i miss the times when we can just like gossip and stuffs and don't have to worry abt offending ppl i miss the times when i can still be loud and high and no one will rlly shush me up seriously or chase me awayyyyy

it all feels like lower sec again

so saddeninggg larhh see see seee and ppl don't like my socialising wayyy so now i can't drift and socialise with other ppl as well le how how how

I MISS YOUUUUUU MUACKKKKS <3

HWA CHONG-IAN NANYANG BEAR!

2009-02-09T14:57:51Z

HOHOS THIS WAS TAKEN DURING ONE OF THE IP LECTURES IF I'M NOT WRONG IT'S AFTER MATH! AND TADA XX'S BEAR HAS ALSO OFFICIALLY CROSSED THE BRIDGE WITH US AND BECAME PART OF THE HWACHONG FAMILY YAYYYS SHE IS GUAI SO SHE PUTS ON HER COLLAR PIN (COURTESY OF ME! & IT'S THE SPOILT ONE!) YAYYYS SO SHE'S OFFICIALLY A HWACHONG-IAN NANYANG BEAR OH YAYYYS :D:D:D

CLAPS CLAPS AND CONGRATULATIONS XX BEAR! :D:D:D

SPAMS!

2009-02-08T10:27:56Z

WHAHAHAS OHH YAYYYS I FEEL LIKE SPAMMINGGGGG HOHOHOS BLAHS BLAHS NOTHING MUCH TO DO SO I SHALL SPAM MYSELF BLAHS BLAHS BLAHS BLAHS HOHOHOHOHOHOS

I'M THE LAST PERSON YOU SHOULD TRUST!

2009-02-08T10:27:13Z

OMG i feel like i'm self-destroying my own image eeyikes i don't know but it feels fun oh blahs i think i must be feeling siao eeyikkkes blahs blahs oh blehhs

ddiaoloudlaughs @ 2009-02-08T18:09:00

2009-02-08T10:15:53Z

i'd be lying if i say i don't feel sad or disappointed at all sure there's this twinge of sadness but it's been better not as bad as before i admit like what my mom says i've overestimated myself my friends have overly high expectations of me and now i realise i'm not as good as i thought as well oh wells maybe really i'm not cut out for it but like what i said i want to join it because i want to feel the bond so getting in or not it's just an added bonus it shouldn't make any difference so yepps i'm joining :D